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Daily Meditation - Coming To Terms




“We are the stage and all the players.”

~ Anonymous


One of the great contributions of psychology has been to help us understand how we replay our hurts and affections with people other than those who have hurt or touched us. There are many names for this, the more well-known being “projection” and “transference.” In essence, we play what has been said or done, or what hasn’t been said or done, over and over, until we come to terms with it. The coming to terms is called healing, surrender, letting go, or even forgiveness.

     Being yelled at and then later kicking the dog is the stereotype of this. Yet more often, we replay the styles of clumsy love we experience. For example, while growing up, I endured the cold dismissal of my truest feelings. When I would show my hurt, I was seen as trying to weaken my parents’ resolve. They then turned their backs on me, as if by showing my pain, I was trying to trick them.

     Having experienced this, I am especially sensitive to the pains of those close to me, yet there are times when I catch myself holding firm, just out of reach, replaying my parents’ role as well as my own. This is humbling and upsetting, to say the least.

     But just as germs must run their course, all the players in our dramas must be voiced before they will leave us be. Just as we keep trying to get what we never got from someone else who doesn’t know our game, we also keep the trespass alive by re-enacting it on others nearby until we can humbly know what it is to be hurtful - the first step toward forgiveness.

     I have seen myself doing what was done to me, never as cruel or as harsh. But it has been enough to make me tremble at how easy it is to be cruel when afraid, and how difficult it is to accept that we are all capable of terrible things, and how cleansing it is to realize that true kindness breathes just beneath this acceptance.


~ Meditate on an insensitivity you have suffered, either in childhood or in friendship or in relationship.

~ Breathe slowly, and let the person who carried this insensitivity drop away and focus on the nature of the insensitivity itself. It might have been a turning away, a rejection, an indifference, a harsh criticism, a rush of anger, or a steeling of feeling toward you.

~ Breathe deeply, and recall the last time you carried a semblance of this same insensitivity to another. Try to recall what led you to do this.

~ Breathe fully now, and let all semblance of insensitivity go.


The Book of Awakening

~ Mark Nepo

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